My High-Risk Pregnancy Experience

Hey Scholars,

I wanted to share a little about my pregnancy experience. I am a young and relatively healthy woman, but I have been classified as having a high-risk pregnancy. My pregnancy is considered high-risk because of my reproductive history. Anyone that has read this blog for a few months or looked through my archive, know that my previous pregnancy was also high-risk and that my son, Eli, was born seven weeks prematurely.

Eli on his first day of life. He was 33 weeks and 3 days gestation, weighed 2 pounds 13 ounces and was 15 inches long. He spent a total of 20 days in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU).

This is the most recent ultrasound picture of Leo. He has managed to surpass Eli in time spent in utero. He is currently measuring at 4 pounds 4 ounces and is expected to not need to stay in the NICU if I can carry him to at least 37 weeks!

I have been monitored closely throughout this pregnancy for complications and I have had a few so far. Once again, my baby has had a restriction in his growth. This is called Intrauterine Growth Restriction (IUGR). Eli also had this issue. As I understand it, Leo (my baby), is having trouble gaining weight in utero and will likely be underweight at birth. His placenta also looks small and he doesn't have a normal amount of amniotic fluid.

I currently go to the hospital twice a week to be monitored on the fetal monitor and I kick count while I'm there. I also have an ultrasound every other monitoring visit and every two weeks with a Neonatologist. The ultrasounds check Leo's growth, amniotic fluid levels, and just his overall health.

In addition to the fetal monitoring, I see a high-risk Obstetrician once a week. She makes sure I am doing well physically and emotionally. She also asks me about my academic career, which I love, because I feel that she sees me as more than a mother. She is an African-American female professional and I really admire that she's great at her craft.

Right now, things look positive. I've never been this far into a pregnancy. I have experienced pregnancy loss in the past and premature birth, so I am in unchartered territory.

What has surprised me about pregnancy after the 33rd week, which is the farthest I've been until now, is that I am so uncomfortable.

I can't sleep through the night because I need to use the bathroom, my feet swell sometimes, I cannot walk more than a few blocks without stomach cramps, and don't even get me started on how my Sciatica has flared up.

Other than that, I am doing pretty well. My Dysthymia has been under control for the most part and I'm hoping that if I do suffer from PPD (Postpartum Depression) like I did with Eli, I'll be able to find a great therapist to help me work through that.

That's all for this post. I'm thinking about making a YouTube video on this post. If I do decide to make a video, I will embed the video in this post and send out an update.

Until Next Time Friends

Mental Health Awareness Part II: I Was Undiagnosed for 22 Years

How My ADD Went Undetected for 22 Years

After reading my last post, you might wonder how someone who had obvious signs of ADD went undiagnosed until college.

The truth is that I was clever at working around my disorder because I knew I learned differently than my peers. I had come up with solutions to help myself learn materials.

How I Worked Around My Disorder

• In college, when I needed to read large amounts of text in a short period of time, I would buy my textbooks in a PDF format and have the PDF program read the text to me.

• Whenever I was forced to used a physical book, I used highlighters or pen to mark which sections I had read to avoid reading the same paragraphs over and over again.

• I also took extensive notes and kept notebooks for each subject

• I used sticky notes for quick thoughts and ideas instead of stopping and taking a break during studying sessions. Doing this allowed my mind wander without losing track of what I was doing.

• I made lists for what I needed to accomplish daily, weekly, and monthly and had a friend or family member make sure I followed through.

• I asked for help with remembering dates when needed.

To many people this may seem like a great way of being an organized college student, but for me, it was a mechanism to combat my forgetfulness. It was the only way I could succeed in academia. When I didn’t follow even one step, I would spiral and began failing the course.

I am also an autodidact, a person who is self-taught. I found that traditional school didn’t teach to the style that helped me learn best. I frequently needed to come home and study entire lessons on my own because lecture and verbal repetition didn’t help me retain any information. It was as if I had not even attended class.

When I figured out how I learned best, which is kinesthetically (by using my hands and using my body to remember information), I would reteach myself using the textbook and incorporating real-life situations for comparison.

For instance, if I needed to write a paper on education, I would physically go and interview students and educators I knew, instead of reading and reciting text. If I could go into the field and find the information, it was much easier to find it online and satisfy my educator’s requirements.

I think the reason I went undiagnosed for so long was also because my quirks were never taken seriously. I was classified as an underachieving gifted person, a wasted potential, and a lazy person. People write you off for that and once you have that recorded on paper, it is difficult to escape the stigma.

Adult ADD Symptoms Can Mimic Other Disorders

I was also misdiagnosed with multiple disorders because of the tragedies in my life and that hid the true diagnoses of Dysthymia (long-term depression) and Adult ADD.

Depression can mimic many symptoms of Adult ADD, like inability to concentrate and perform in everyday life. Being depressed consistently since I was 12, which is when my father died, my ADD was masked by the cloak of depression.

I Decided to Remain Unmedicated

After being properly diagnosed, I was offered the option to take medication in addition to weekly therapy to help cope with both disorders. I didn’t want to take a medication. As a breastfeeding mother who had been non-medicated since 2007, I decided to continue coping with both my Dysthymia and Adult ADD without the use of medication.

After years of seeing commercials about injuries and deaths from the side effects of medications previously marketed to be safe, I decided that the side effects I could experience were worse than the state of both disorders.

People who watched me struggle over the years with my disorders questioned my judgment after I declined medication, but I know that if I take a medication that could possibly make me suicidal or more depressed, my son would be worse off. I can’t risk that. As someone who is stable ninety percent of the time, I think that I will just deal with that ten percent when it comes around.

 Pros

I’m not a foolish person. I did consider the benefits to taking medication.

• I would be able to function more efficiently in everyday life, as a parent, and as a student

• I would feel more energized and upbeat

• I would be able to concentrate


These are all great reasons to become medicated.

However, in my case, the negatives outweighed the positives.

Cons

• I could no longer breastfeed my son, who thrived as a preemie because I breastfed him.

• I might suffer adverse effects from the medications:

o My depression could worsen

o I could become suicidal and try to harm myself

o I could suffer an allergic reaction from the ingredients

• I would be dependent on medication for my happiness

The risk of being suicidal is the main reason why I chose not to be medicated. I have experienced that side effect in the past and now that I’m a parent, I refuse to put any chemical into my body that would cause that reaction.

Having been stable for years, occasional therapy sessions, when I’m overwhelmed, are what I believe will work best for me.


In the next, and final post of my Mental Health Awareness series, I'm going to list a lot of resources I found helpful.

Please come back for the Mental Health Awareness Part III post next week. If you missed part one, you can find the link here.

As always, I am not claiming to be a Mental Health Professional. I am a person who has experienced Mental Health Issues first hand and wanted to share my experience. Please tell someone you trust if you are experiencing instability and feel you cannot handle it alone.



Until Next Time Friends,

♥ Domonique ♥ 

Mental Health Awareness Part 1: What Life is like Living With ADD

This post is part one in a series of posts chronicling my struggle with Adult ADD. I wrote this post and the ones following this from my personal experience and I offer no apologies for my honesty.

This is also a safe place for me to write about my experiences and if you threaten that safety, I will deal with you in whatever way is appropriate for the situation.

This post is lengthy, so if you do not like that kind of post, you should stop now.